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Scorched Home
03:45
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I've shed every ounce of skin
And abandoned the only home I have ever had
All for the chase of finding something to suffocate my soul
Hoping I could then fit into this hole
A place where I'll self inflict the pain
Until there is nothing left to feel
Besides the scars I trace
Just to think of all the wrongs I'll never right
As I've poured kerosene on everything I've built
Just to feel the warmth of burning desire
Burnt my life down
Took shelter inside my head
Laid with thieves
To fill the voids left
A heart once gold
Left to corrode
And my stench
Has left me alone
I've done all but atone
For the oaths I have broke
Watched my blood suffer
From my scorched home
Years of playing the victim
Has placed me here
And I fooled no one
Don't place your empathy here
Let waves of peace
Crash through me
Hang me out to dry
On the cross of serenity
As my convictions turned to dust
I felt a sense of relief
Cause this mind is the only burden I need
Let me die hanging my head
Ever so filled with dread
Cause I made my life
A cellar for what I had
And I'll roam until a purpose finds me
But like the righteous
I'll rot eternally
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I'm remembering all the times
With no consciousness
You crashed the car
From the medicine to cope
So you could forget me and her
Were ever yours
Brand us as your downfall
And we'll brand you the same
For your love is in vain
So we were taught that love is pain
And you lived in the glass house
That the river flooded
Though it was all a ploy
For the sickness toyed with
Drown me
Sever every tie bonding you and I
Drown me in your holy water
As you collided with the floor
Our family died
So I searched for beauty in the storm
‘Til our worlds collide
Choking on the blood you gave me
Leave me paralyzed
For your crocodile tears
They kill me
Leave me paralyzed
And the song you sang
It didn't mean a thing
For you're hard to handle
Selfish and sad
Yet I still find sympathy
Deep in my heart
As much as I try to hate
I'll miss you when you’re gone
And when the time comes
We'll walk in shame
‘Cause the blood in me
Was your blood to take
Another glass of wine
To take you away
From your hardships and troubles
That leave you ashamed
As you remember the path you took
That will haunt you till the end
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Dreaming Red
03:04
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Losing myself in primitive thoughts it's like I'm always dreaming I'm God
Caught staring at the clock until I find some courage
It just ticks and ticks until my atoms split
This war has found its way to my door
I'll be a victim of debt’s scorn
Lying in the trench with my restlessness
Restlessness
Dwelling with the neanderthals
Searching for a fix
Dreaming the red out of my eyes
Until I get my fix
Dependent on addiction’s core
Blending to the pavement
Searching for so much more
Left on the floor
In search of a coma’s cure
Fill up these veins
With my poison dreams
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Fire Walk With Me
05:45
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Sick of death and sick of life
Watched the sun devour the night
I'm always following the ghost of melancholy
Life has chained me
And taken me under the wings of tormented dreams
And when it all crashed down
As did my certainty
Another night burning flowers
As it serves as a reminder of words growing thin
Asphyxiated from the sight of you
And I severed the tongue
That grew incapable of speaking your name
Buried it with the promises of which we couldn't obtain
And I lie in the soil waiting for you to call my name
You found warmth in a place once cold
Left me to die and watch my heart erode
Stayed in your shadow and watched you bloom
It's lovely from a distance but leaves me bruised
My role as a placeholder has come and gone
Left to figure out where it all went wrong
Now I sleep in an altered state
You haunt me in my dreams
And leave me to inhale apathy
As your every breath
Pierces my arteries
So I avoid sleep
As the fear of waking up is taking its toll on me
I don't wanna open my eyes to a life once pure and clean
I wanna beg for you to come and save me
But this complacency has purged me
Pray to be numb
As the ache never leaves
Your blood has made its home in my veins
A heart that once beat in unison with mine
Writes the death note to this life
So I dig to the earth’s core to search for all abandoned
And all I find
Is the torture adored
Chained to your roses thorn
And all the secrets I chose to ignore
Mirror fades to black
Felt you through the cracks
Death comes and gives me a light
Life fades in this darkness of mine
Painting walls with these memories
I'm just a cog in this suicide machine
Trying to clear my head
But this damage is done
I'll wither away instead
Let me be the first to die in your flowerhead
Every flower whispers your name
As if I was still engraved in your brain
Every flower whispers your name
For you are still engraved in my brain
My ghost will trace your name in the dirt upon my grave
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Grief/Relief
06:46
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Drowning in a sea of consciousness
Off the coast of depravity
Left the ruins and sank in your skin
Wept and wept as I faced punishment
Watched souls escape through a lens
Forked tongue spewing venom
Blackened lungs and bloodshot eyes
This is how I always pictured I'd die
Searched for grief in a painting called relief
Bathed in lust to remind me
That desires always erase me
So love doesn't come easy
And hatred sings a song so pure to me
It fuels my insecurities
Always fail to cover my tracks
So when I fall I never react
Trying to search for grace in this pain
Let it flow like the blood in my veins
My nails can only carry so much dirt
So I'll cut off my fingers to make this work
Searched for inspiration among travesty
Found myself alone craving security
Another door shut in my face
Another reason to kill the memories
Buried them deep inside my head
Lost souls sleeping in my bed
Watched souls escape through a lens
Forked tongue spewing venom
Blackened lungs and bloodshot eyes
This is how I always pictured I'd die
Though I'd like to say goodbye
Forced dementia through my mind
So whoever's controlling you now
Let them know I fucking tried
Watched the dust settle
Heard the rite of passage
Locked eyes with a ghost that failed me
Searched for solace in dead memories
So for the closure we'll never have
I'll continue to scream your name
Until I feel nothing
I seek nothing
Carried the weight of words you spoke
Felt your God clenching my throat
Left to dwell for eternity
About love, hate, and everything in between
Inhaling smoke and breathing out fire
Wish I was never born with desire
The gods have cast a burden upon my soul
And anguish cuts my throat
Leave me to the worms so they can feast
On all my dead-weight dreams
So find me hanging from your light
So I can keep myself warm
For these times are trying
And you lost intentions once pure
Put your hands around my neck
I want you to feel victorious again
So shall I sink like Virginia Woolf
Or will I burn like I'm Joan of Arc
Either way, the world's gonna spin
So I'll return to my dream state again
For this remedy, it must die
Place your flowers in my eyes
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Charlatan
05:28
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Stargazing through these cold empty streets
I'll call to god like a beggar to a thief
He listens closely to my heart beat
Search for meaning not tired and cheap
He finds a soul so decrepit and poor
I look to him like he's something pure
He'll dissolve into the night
Lead to believe in my visions light
Making faith my only sight
So fragile yet so divine
I want to believe in something
That could stop my brain from swelling
Let the world fall to my feet
So I can march to the beat of my dreams
Stargazing every night
Drinking poison to feel delight
Exhale the smoke ‘til I see the light
Fantasizing about my past lies
If I could change my mind
I'd let you paint me pure white
But your hands are tied
From the indecision
In this stream of life
So I'll remain black and blue
Till the sea washed me up to false truth
Watched my loved ones believe endlessly
As I paint a picture of envy
Left me there grasping the air
Until I knew that nothing was there
Succumbed to the power of illusion
Sank into sand to forget eternity
But I always call out to nothing
So it seems I’m doing something
I live and die with every breath
Puncture my lungs ‘til there's nothing left
Locked up and I swallowed the key
So I could never see beauty in greed
Left to soak in the rain ‘til I descend to a godless reign
Dig those fingers into my eyes
Disconnect me from my tortured youth
I'll become one with the damned
As I cannot believe in you
Succumbed to the power of illusion
Sank into sand to forget eternity
But I always call out to nothing
So it seems I’m doing something
If I could sacrifice every sin
To feel solace in the skin I'm in
I'd let the knife cut me deep
And become your dismal being
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Neurosis
04:45
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Calendars hanging from the wall
359 days of withdrawal
Left me fucked inside these walls
Carve in stone all my faults
Losing sense in this dimension
That breeds false fate and ill intentions
Cleanse me with my paranoia
Write me vows you cannot keep
And I'll be a witness to shattered dreams
Let the warmth come over me
Dig me a grave no one can reach
And I'll lie with my eyes wide open
With my glass like emotions
Screaming for a sense of clarity
Writing vows I cannot keep
For my chest is caved in
From my racing mind
And my trembling hands
For I can't help but think
That I'm just the son
Of collapsed lungs
And I'll try to say I need you
But I can't make out the words
So I just swallow them whole
And hope you see I'm at my worst
For I'm weak, tired, and so full of hate
Seeking validation
In self caused pain
Everyone's out for gore
And my wrists are slit
On this lonesome tower
Built on shame and terror
I wanna be another cold soul
That always takes and takes and takes
So I can lay with the fellow sons and daughters of Cain
All these anxious claims
They're my way of staying sane
I'll just live another day
In this goddamn sorrowful rain
So lay me on the altar
Oh, god of mental strife
Treat my body as a temple
I wanna set things right
As this recluse that I've become
Is just a whore of self hatred
But I'm learning that's my natural skin
So treat me like another bastard kid
And I've grown so comfortable
With this state I'm in
Forced smiles on another thoughtless whim
As commitment is an ocean
I'm tired of diving in
My eyes stapled open
And my head never rests
Longing for victory
In neurosis tyranny
I wanna live in false misery
Blinking lights
In a soul sunken city
Live life like the heartless men
Who always finds a way to win
Let the dying gods crash to their knees
Lay them to waste in the Garden of Gethsemane
For I'm throwing in the towel
In this fight with my existential means
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